I'm getting pretty frustrated with the fatigue. Not only am I just tired all of the time but it's causing confusion and irritability. I feel on edge a lot, and know I'm not doing much of anything to the best of my ability right now. I see my doctor in the morning I'll talk to her about it and see what she suggests. I don't know if it will be medically warranted but I really think time off work would do me some good. When I have a very simple schedule I seem to be far less overwhelmed and much happier. I suppose that would be true for anybody but even the smallest of things that wouldn't normally affect people are starting to become crazy makers.
You know what would be great? If I could start feeling better mentally (hey, I'd take physically too) and could turn this blog into a slightly happier read. It bums me out that I feel like I'm just constantly bitching but like I've also said multiple times, my intention of this blog is to be as honest as possible so hopefully when someone else finds out they have Hep C and have all sorts of questions about what treatment might be like this will be there for them. Resources are low, as is awareness, I still need to find a greater way to increase that than by this blog alone. I do thank all of those who read this though and encourage you to help with awareness and get tested!
Being bitchy is OK... illness tends to make us bitchy, living through an environment that isn't the healthiest for us makes us bitchy. We need to release that, and state it. This also helps people relate to us.
ReplyDeleteWe also need to balance it with upsides, celebrations, gratitude. If it's downsides ALL the time then we do not connect people with the wonder of the fact that we are here to begin with, and that we can see and enjoy things in life even when the chips are down. We all need to cultivate this skill, or we fall into depression - our life becomes about our roadblocks then, when it is really so much more.