I've been out on leave for a month now. Wow, it honestly feels weird to say that. Anyway... my short term disability is only approved through Aug 4th at which time they will have to review doctors notes from July 13th (they're technically already doing this now) and Aug 3rd (my follow up appt with my specialist) to determine how much longer I should be granted benefits. I know it's all part of the process but my god I feel like I'm constantly dealing with these guys and it STRESSES ME OUT!! Feeling stressed and overwhelmed were huge reasons for me not working in the first place!!
The fatigue I'm experiencing seems to be changing faces a little bit. Besides being fairly tired all of the time, my sleep is also extremely inconsistent. I can't seem to sleep through the night to save my life and while I know I could take something I'm honestly freaked out by sleeping medication. As if I will take them and never wake up or something. Might sound silly, but that's where my brain takes me. sigh.
My arms and hands have been hurting extremely bad for approximately two weeks now. I don't know if I'm sleeping wrong or what but almost daily I wake up to my hands hurting so much so that it hurts to grab my toothbrush or a glass of water. I haven't mentioned that to my doctors yet yet, mostly because I assumed it was temporary but I think I'll make a point of mentioning it on Aug 3rd because sitting at my desk for 8+ hours a day in this sort of pain would not be good. Ibuprofen and the like haven't helped much either.
The doctor gave me pills for my skin, just a weeks worth that are supposed to help fight off different skin problems but it causes extreme nausea. I just took the last round of pills this morning and am so glad to be done with them! The pills have helped some. I think it was supposed to be more of an internal helper however I was noticing my skin just wasn't healing well and it seems to be doing slightly better. It'll be nice as well to see where my nausea level actually is after this stuff is out of my system and hopefully it's a ton more bearable than my current state. Food or no food, I have more or less felt like puking all week. I'll be so glad when that feeling is gone!
This last weekend I missed out on a movie premiere and concert that I had every intention of going to. Those who know me will fully understand just what that means. Lorrie no feel good :( More updates to come soon, hopefully happier, shinier updates.