Ughhh!

I am out to see a friends band play and am in so much pain I just want to cry. My lower back and legs are so achy I honestly don't know how I'm sitting still. Ok rant over.

well, hmmm...

I'm so afraid I didn't give myself a full dose this time around. I'm managing to get the shot put together and take it a lot easier but I am not strong enough (or maybe still too nervous) to administer the whole shot without applying extra pressure. Once I noticed I reinserted the needle and hopefully more of the fluid came out but who knows. It's not the end of the world but still can't help but be a little nervous over it. Okay, it's been forty minutes or so, side effects should be kicking in soon. Time for sleep.

One month down, ten to go

This has by far been the longest month of my life. I am however,  extremely grateful to have the chance to heal and possibly even clear this silent killer of a virus that sits inside me.

This has been a rough week. Wednesday was the worst, yesterday a bit better and today somewhere in the middle. Now I get to take my shot tonite and go through the motions all over again. I may appear to be bitching, I suppose I am, but I also know this will be over soon enough and seeing how much its teaching me about myself I already know its worth all of the pain and frustration.

I'm making myself go for walks on my lunch hour. Now that the sun is out I don't mind. I think its helping a little with the fatigue too. Not instantly but toward the end of my day I notice I'm not as exhausted as normal.

Ok off to walk for a bit...

Feeling helpless

I don't care for "poor me" updates but today is another one of those days I'd much rather wish I had completely slept through.

I woke up sick in the middle of the night. I think I stayed asleep after that but felt horrible upon waking.

I had to bid farewell to my friends from Canada, too. Because I wasn't feeling well I don't think it showed but it was sad to see them go.

I went and got blood work done today and slept, a lot.

I've been an emotional wreck all day. My body hurts from my head to my toes and I'm just tired. So freaking tired.

I decided to meet up with friends for a bit tonite as I need human interaction before I totally lose it.

Ok enough for now. Thank god tomorrow is a new day!